Before setting out on quest for revenge...one should first dig two graves.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jzlpaz-8-j4
^Daniel Lanois - Under a Stormy Sky^
As I was trying to come up with a clever post title by using my usual method of just typing some shit, that particular quote/cliche just popped into my head for some reason. And when it did, another popular quote/cliche popped into my head, as the previous quote might relate to my life...
"I've got one foot on a banana peel, and another foot in the grave."
I've been described in the previous manner. I guess because I seem clumsy and haphazard in my methods.
But as I combined the previous two quotes/cliches, some occurred to me. And that is, that maybe there is an alternate interpretation of the "digging two graves before seeking revenge" as it has been either explained or my own conclusions. (pun intended)
As far as I remember, the two grave are there because the outcome of the conflict to come is uncertain. That makes me think of an alternate version of the original that goes something like "before setting out for revenge, first dig your own grave."
But what I thought of when combining "feet location in proximity to banana peels and open graves, and quests of one type or another"...is that perhaps one grave is for your body, and the other for your soul. That works equally well with the single grave analogy in the event of a failed quest, irrespective of "type of failure." But I guess at some point, you are the one that has to crawl into that grave. I guess it's all how we do it. The "why" we did it is irrelevant...especially from the perspective of others.
My thinking is, that "why" will not become relevant from the perspective of others until well after "when" we "crawl into that grave of our own volition via our own choices." The "how " will be that "fuzy/clear/fuzzy/clear" kind of thinking as "details emerge in the story" for those that the story interests.
This is why I do not participate in "death" in the way that seems to the popular and acceptable methods.
It occurs to me that people sometimes only have an interest in getting there or who go there and how, after it's already "all said and done." Almost a bitter kind of regret for not participating in the ride as it was happening. A lot of mourning and personal reflection on what could I have done better or differently. It occurs to me that life is the time for such ponderings. Good thing you are still alive to be pondering such things eh? Yep, there's always hope. Always "a bright side."
I don't like thinking about these things, much less writing about them. Keep in mind the context tho. Because in truth, I think like this all of the time. The problem that I have with writing about these things is the "teaching/preaching/converting" aspect(s). There's always someone that is going to interpret what I think/talk/write about, is some kind of subversive attempt to convert or sway. So...you recoil, and you return to your safe distance. You poked at a snake, and you are shocked when it strikes at you.
"I don't want to see it...I've GOT to see it." - Hal
Movie = Shallow Hal
I'm no different. I just handle confirmation a little different than most...just like you might...cept different. Maybe that's why I relate to a Snake with respect to just wanting to be left alone and go my own way as designed, but I relate more to a Scorpion. Prolly because a Scorpion is more of a grappler than a striker. But I digress.
I guess I am pondering my relationships post that conversation with my mother. Mainly because, I related the story to whatshername, and she was like..."YOU CALLED YOUR MOTHER?!?!?!? I cannot BELIEVE that I have not received a phone call yet." I was like "she always calls you after I call her?" And whatshername said "...like clockwork." Hmmm....interesting. (Emphasis on the "sting" part)
Q: When is "my soul" not "in jeopardy?"
A: ALL THE FUCKING TIME!!!
So yeah..."why." Welp "worrying about my soul"...its erm...on the list. I just view "the soul" as part of a whole. It's just some of the sum of my parts. The sum? Sure...at some point. Some points even.
Someone Tweeted something this week regarding the British Prime Minister May stating recently, that she would be willing to go to war to protect Gibraltar.
Q: Was she expected to say something else?
A: ?¿?
I guess this is the method in which "those who are unsure" might "run this up the flagpole to see who salutes." I guess how they salute is prolly gonna be important as well...assuming they salute at all. There may have alsobeen a reference in that there particular "Tweet"...with respect to how Margaret Thatcher handled The Falklands as well. I dunno. Couldn't find the Tweet in question, which I looked for because I was gonna comment on it. I guess I needed more than 126 characters eh? ;-)
My thought was, that this particular Tweet was regarding sex/the sexes. And yeah, it does, but no, it doesn't. Do you really think that ANYONE would accept the position of Prime Minister of Great Britain, NOT knowing what her responsibilities are? Not knowing the history of previous Prime Ministers? Not having both a good bead on British History as it relates to Britain and the rest of the world, as well as a good bead on the current history, histories as it unfolds/has unfolded/is unfolding? I think sometimes we place entirely too much emphasis on how the job gets done as opposed to if it gets done.
"A job worth doing, is worth doing right." - Some Cowboy Preacher
Yeah who knows what the fuck THAT is. I mean, we are here, not there. We only know where we want to be, and here? Yeah...it appears that "here" currently ain't the fucking list of places we want to be. We want to be there. Now...here's how were gonna get there...
Yeah...gotta be tough to be a leader. Maybe you have some experience with that sort of thing. Maybe you are experiencing that kind of thing. Maybe "that thing" is the unkind kind of thing kinda thing...or something. Know what I'm sayin? No? Me neither. We'll it figure out when we get there. Now all we have to figure out how to do...is get there. Any suggestions?
"SUGGESTION!!!" That's the word that I was looking for earlier with respect to preaching/teaching or teaching/preaching. Funny how "suggestion" works eh? We're all about suggestions when we don't know what to do. Be we ain't real fond of it during times of smooth sailing. So yeah...maybe we do know a thing or two about leadership and leading. The question becomes..."are we being led?"
WOWZA!!! That's a biggie eh? We wanna be led, we don't wanna be led. We wanna be led when we wanna be led, we don't wanna be led when we don't wanna be led. Might be mines in that minefield. We might get hurt. Welp...somebody went into that minefield and set it up for some reason. Some idiot is gonna blunder into it at some point. Or...we can send someone in. Or...we can ask for volunteers.
/me sheepishly raises hand
Recognizing worth seems to be important to us.
Q: What about self-worth? How do we evaluate that?
A: The id? The ego?
So...it's OK for others to tell us how great we are, or for us to base our own judgement on the judgement of others...but not in a more idependent type of fashion? Idependent meaning, a more self-evaluated saelf-evaluation where we and try and shed the outside opinion? (The "N" was intentionally left out of "independent" there. Thank God for spelling errors eh?)
Yep...it's gonna be difficult to do that's for sure. We might even become suddenly queasy with the sudden knowledge of suddenly knowing that we are dependent on others for knowing all we know. Lemme know when you've collected yourself. You good? Good. Let's keep going.
Looking at things in this way, is prolly going to allow you to quickly notice just how much you have actually done yourself. You may even zoom straight back to "all of it." I'm kinda a back-and-forth kinda person myself. But yeah, some of those things you've done yourself may shine so brightly that it blinds you. Some of those things you've done yourself may so dark and gloomy, that it feels like your soul is being sucked right out of you. I guess this why I try to look at "light and dark" as an agreement of sorts. "An agreement to disagree?" Sure. Sometimes. But even that is an agreement. This is why I kinda operate under the "there is no mystery that cannot be solved" kinda of thinking most of the time. It works for me personally, because I have no mysteries to solve. Not in an "Indiana Jones" kind of way. I mean yeah, I have some of those too, but they tend to be the kinds of mysteries that cannot be solved. Ironic eh?
My thinking there, is "now what?" or "what now?"...meaning...OK, let's say I solve this particular mystery. Am I the only one that benefits? Because if that'so, I'll just leave that one alone. I have to actively "recruit" someone to my cause...it looses all of it's luster. If I have to inactively "recruit" someone to my cause...I fucking RUN. Yeah...prolly another reason why I'm not popular with the ladies. Not popular with anyone really, but I'm OK with that.
What a minefield eh?
I hate writing like this. Nothing but me, me, me, me, me.
:-(
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pmmetRAmtRU
^The Prodigy - Mindfields (original)^
Meh...I have no opinion on the matter.
Which matter?
I dunno...pick one.
I gots no answers.
Storms on the way.
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